Physically Exhausted:
All this going on seriously affected my ability to sleep. No sleep = cranky me. The end.
Mental Exertion:
I have two research papers due this Thursday as well as my first final exam scheduled for Saturday morning. I'm nowhere near prepared for any of my finals, yet these papers are holding up my study time. Simultaneously, I need to start packing since immediately after finals week, on June 15 (我的生日 hooray..), is move out day from beautiful Mesa Court. I'm also diving headfirst back into the job-hunting process. If I didn't look at all these step-by-step, I wouldn't even be able to comprehend how I would be able to get any of this done.
Emotional Turmoil:
So many important things are just happening right now that I have to miss out on. My sister and best friend from high school are graduating high school this week, but for many reasons I can't be there for them. Really disappointing.. And then I got thinking about my past: bad timing but once there, it wouldn't leave. On top of that, I still can't help but feel like a third wheel sometimes with a couple of my friends. I don't know what their situation is, but the past couple hangouts with them honestly weren't much fun. Then again, the fact that it was a shitty week probably made everything seem terrible..
The biggest thing impacting me at the moment though is the end of this year's term of Jumpstart service. Jumpstart is the early childhood education program that I work for. We're basically language arts teachers for preschoolers. After spending a full school year with these kids, I've gotten so attached to some of them that the thought of never seeing them again blows me away. Jumpstart has really been a significant part of my freshman year, and I'll be proud of my work with them for a lifetime. This Thursday, it really will be hard to fight tears when we sing our goodbye song for the last time. I'll close off this post with what I'd like to say to each of my preschoolers.
Heaven: You're such a smart girl. Reading to you was always fun because you paid the most attention to the story. You're the funniest preschool girl I've ever talked to, hearing your jokes during reading time, or even just hearing you call me names really does brighten my day. Also thanks for teaching me so much Spanish throughout the year. I have absolutely no worries for you in Kindergarten or through the rest of school. Just don't forget me. ^__^
Cesar: You are a crazy little kid, but very intelligent and a gentleman. Self-control is something I bet you'll develop better than everyone else because of how much you get in trouble. hahah But having you switched to my group, while frustrating at times, was a great pleasure. I will miss seeing your well-dressed and smiling face in the mornings. I really wish I had your game, and the girl to eventually marry you will be a lucky one indeed. ;)
Monica: Y R U SO SHY??? You are a bright girl with an incredibly cute smile/laugh. My favorite part of Jumpstart sessions was playing outside with you and Natali because that's when you let go and let yourself shine. You will have absolutely no trouble making friends through the rest of your life. Have fun in Kindergarten next year and be a good influence to your baby brother. :)
Diego: You, sir, are a STUD. It's unbelievable that a 4-year-old is better looking than most celebrities. If I could look as good as you do now, I would be set for life. On top of that, you're a sweet kid (always pushing everyone's chairs in after reading time) and already so organized (cleaning up after yourself and making sure everything is put away exactly in the right places). Cesar has some competition coming in the near future. Don't become too much of a heartbreaker. :D
Josh: I love all of you in the class equally, but I will miss you the most Josh. The way you connected with me this year (by virtue of your initial proficiency in English) is incredible. Even though you were sometimes just as troublesome as Cesar, you always behaved when asked (not forced) and always took a deep interest in the books I read to you. I'll miss answering all the questions your curious mind had to ask: you will have no problem completing your education because you always have such a drive to learn new things. I wish I could just adopt you and be your older brother ( I haven't heard great things about your brother..). Don't follow in those footsteps. I really hope you grow up to live a wholesome life away from bad influences. Please stay away from trouble and continue to do as well as you have this year.
I hope we all cross paths again sometime. Maybe someday I'll be one of your high school teachers or college TAs. Or maybe one of you will end up helping me in someway. 'Kay gotta close this off now. The tears are coming, and I really need to make progress on these papers. For now: 再見我的小朋友們. :')
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