First week of college! I've been moved in for a week now, my hall has finally really warmed up to each other and my first classes were successful. It's insane how fast time has passed. It seems only last year that I couldn't even comprehend the idea of going off for a university. Yet, here I am in Irvine, California. I thought I came from Orange County, but I guess high school is where you really set in. I'm experiencing culture shocks, like the ones I got when I moved to Utah four years ago, all over again. I don't really fit in here anymore, I've become a Utah kid. xD This is the first time all summer that heat has been driving me insane!
I don't know if I should feel bad about this part.. but I really don't feel homesick at all. Welcome week was such a blast. Home didn't even come to mind until Thursday when I had to help my sister write her personal statements for a scholarship essay. (That took all afternoon and late at night, for both Thursday and Friday. Yes, I did skip the rest of welcome week.) Well until now, I also came to think about something else.. I left a very good friend behind back in Utah. (對啊，我的女朋友..) She really is something special to me. We've been together for seven and a half months. Of course, when I left we were very gung ho about the whole long distance relationship thing. Of course we were going to stay in contact. Of course we were going to work through all the problems. But it's not as easy as Hollywood or the internet makes it seem. Even a good friend of mine, who has a year of experience in the long-D thing, warned me that it would be hard. I've only been able to contact her every three days or so this week. Only two of those were actually video calls. And I'm coming to realize that we will both only become busier as the year drags on. She also let me know of her intention to stay within Utah for college. Disappointed, yes. But I understand her position, I understand that she has way different obligations. I needed to get out of the house, but she especially needs to stay near her family right now. It's only been a week, but it feels like months. I miss my best friend.
I don't know what will become of us in the future, but for now we both agreed to give it a little more time at a time. Everyday, I've been working to conceal this emotional hole and still be outgoing enough to make friends with the people in my hall. I don't know how she really feels at this point. I want her to travel the path that will be best for her, not me. Even should our shared path hit a fork, nothing will change the fact that she was my best friend and I will never regret it. It still hurts to think about, I desperately need a friend to talk to..
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