[十二] 快瘋掉

There is no deep life story behind this post.  I just want to write.  These are my realizations.

First off:
     - Realization that all of the conversations with my dad since 2008 have gone exactly the same way:
"Hi, *how was work*?"
"Do you have homework?"
"Yea.. *Thanks for answering my question*."
"(Insert 'well just work harder' comment here)"
End conversation.
** As of late I've been omitting this parts of the sentences when speaking to shorten the conversation.

     - Realization that the above will probably never change and frankly, I'm sick of trying to make it change.
Screw it.  It's no longer worth the effort for more disappointment.

     - Realization that Blogs are basically oversized facebook wall posts.
For real.  hahaha  Just fewer viewers and you don't necessarily know what kind of people are reading said wall post.

     - Realization that college application deadlines are approaching.
Not too worried actually.  I'm making good progress on those.  :)

     - Realization the even the most mild anxiety inducing thoughts can occupy my mind for hours on end.
Those anxious thoughts are the 1%..  hahaha  political joke.  >_<

Back story:
     - Realization that: The biggest one on my head has been there for the past couple months now.  Sometimes I'd rather just find out about something now than later, even if said knowledge is potentially heartbreaking.  The problem is that to find such things out usually requires asking which is another big anxiety producer.

     - Realization that I realize the above because of my friend last night.  :(  Sorry PJ.

     - Realization that these realizations are going to drive me insane at some point.

     - Realization that this blog post needs to end now.

     - Realization that this post will not end right now.

     - Realization that this entire post is random.

     - Realization that the above post is a lie.
I actually have a purpose to writing whatever I write.

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