2011-12-14

[十五] 從心裡

I have not written anything for almost a month.  For good reasons (college essays and applications).  (and life). (also because I'm a terrible writer and I haven't really thought of anything worth writing about).  That being said, I actually have no idea what I wanted to write about now.. So I'm actually just keeping whatever my fingers happen to type..
Hmm.. Ima write about my life for the past month of absence from this site.

1.- Two weeks ago I finally sent in my first applications to the University of California.  I applied for the Los Angeles, Berkeley and Irvine campuses.  Since they are already sent in, I'm going to go ahead and copy my essay prompts and responses here.

Prompt 1: "Describe the world you come from and tell us about how it has shaped your dreams and aspirations."

 I was born to immigrant parents of Chinese and Filipino ethnicity. Until I began my second year of school, I had a limited ability to speak the English language. Since those first years in Torrance, California, I have attended seven different schools, lived in three different cities and encountered people of many different backgrounds.
Emphasis on education, hard work and contribution to the greater good is the mark of the Chinese and Filipino cultures. From an early age, my father would buy several study aids in an attempt to push me ahead of my peers, despite my struggle with English. Even that changed in my second year of school, when I devoted myself to learning the language. I went as far as telling my parents that I did not want to speak Tagalog! Nevertheless, I still found it difficult to make new friends.
When first grade came I was transferred to a private Catholic school. Slowly, but surely, I made new friends and transformed into a much more outgoing child. I faced the challenge again in fourth grade when I transferred to a public school, and only four months into that school year, faced it again when I moved to a new city. Here, I came to know the first close friends I've ever had.
Moving to Utah was a large mountain to overcome. Eighth grade had just ended and I was informed that I was to spend yet another year in a middle school. I was in anguish about the sudden separation from my closest friends and the sight of my new classmates was the very definition of the term “culture shock”. Being exposed to the unfamiliar religion and the strange nondescript accent proved to be very intimidating. The kids here seemed almost too polite to me. Even so, I quickly adjusted and had made myself a good set of friends by the time I finally started high school.
The big move was an almost heartbreaking experience, so I felt very good about myself after completing the climb, like I could do anything. I had set my heart to overcoming the emotional mountain, which became the source of my inspiration to study psychology and aspire to become a school counselor. Looking back, I realize that I am grateful to have had the opportunity to interact with so many different communities. I have grown up in such a diverse world that I have come to know how to relate to almost anyone's experiences. In my quest to achieve my dreams still lies a long road ahead, a road that only a quality UC education can help me traverse.
At the end of this road, I hope to retire peacefully, knowing that I have touched the lives of many with the help of the knowledge gained from my time at the University of California.

Prompt 2: "Tell us about an achievement you are proud of and how it relates to the person you are."

 The final note resonated in the air, followed by brief silence and finally there was applause. This was the last competition of the season for the Copper Hills marching band. As we marched off the field, I could see that about a quarter of us had tears in our eyes, and I knew why. This was it. We had just played the final note of our high school marching career.
After putting nine years of hard work into the business, I could not have appreciated how much music meant to me any more than at that moment. Although I knew that the school year was still not over, and I would see most of these kids again in regular band class the following Monday, marching band had been such a significant chapter in the musical book of my life, that I was suddenly sorry to see the last of the pages slowly turning away.
I remember the fourth grade, when I first walked into Ms. Reeves' beginner band class. I remember the warm accomplished feeling of the first note forced out of my flute. From then on, I became dedicated to improving, becoming the first chair of the intermediate band in seventh grade. Eighth grade was the most memorable. I feel absolutely gifted to have been a part of the Brea Jr. High concert band. We took first place and superior ratings at each festival without fail.
I remember moving to West Hills Middle School in the ninth grade, feeling the crushing disappointment after seeing the quality of this new program compared to my old one, how disgusted I was with the amount of kids who couldn't even play scales. I had a similar reaction to the marching band in tenth grade. However, over the past four years, as I contributed more to the band, I saw amazing results. We went from the underrated forgettable band with poor equipment to the proud Marching Grizzlies who drew loud applause and even advanced to a new division. Watching this band grow helped me to better appreciate what I had before and proud of what I have now. We may not have been at the same level of my old school; we may not have taken first place at our last competition, but what I saw now was a transformed band that made me regret my first impressions. I am extremely proud to have taken a part in the rapid growth of this band.
Throughout my life, music has been my stress reliever, a source of inspiration, my favorite hobby and one of my greatest teachers. It has taught me discipline, dedication and humility. Without it I could not be the person I am today.

Actually, all of the application was done long before the essay was (remember I am pretty bad at writing).  At least it's submitted now.

2.- My high school's annual "Sub-4-Santa" charity fundraiser has started again!  :D  At this fundraiser, each school club sells a certain product or service that is either bought and resold or made by them.  All of the money made from the fundraisers is then used to buy Christmas presents and everyday necessities for the families in need around our community.  Well this is the first year our Chinese club is even in existence, so we have very few members and we aren't likely to raise too much money.  However, the deal is they get to bleach my hair if we happen to raise at least $100 on our first year.  Heh..  I think blonde hair would look terrible on me..  but it's for the Children!  ^__^  (Send a check to Copper Hills High School)

3.- Copper Hills Winter Drumline has officially started!  My audition was terrible, I haven't found the time to practice a lot in a couple weeks.  Yet, somehow I still got the snare drum part, which I am very excited about.  More on that to come.

4.- My Calculus AB teacher, Ms. Harmon, has gotten a promotion!  Which means she left our class this week, for good.  Her teaching style didn't exactly suit me.. but what's kind of stressful is that none of the replacement teachers have EVER taught AP Calculus before.  Methinks this years pass rate for our school is going to be lower than usual.  hahaha  jk I have faith in my new teacher.

5.- A couple days ago, on the way home, my friend happened to mention in passing, "I know someone likes you."  0__o  "I don't know what she sees in you."  >__<   Well thanks, what a way to lighten my self esteem..  hahaha   I hate when people say this kind of thing, especially if they don't plan to say who it is.  That being said, if she was trying to instill curiosity, then it was kinda successful..  It's more of an afterthought in the back of my head right now.  (Like: "Who could it be?" or "This could be a load of BS  hahaha.")  But I have to admit, I am a bit curious, like a normal human being would be.  Thing is, I've had a crush on a girl right now (well for a while now).  Lately though, I've been getting unsure.  And it's not like THAT kind of "unsure".  It's more explained by: "I do really like her.  But lately I feel like I really don't have a chance at all."  :I   High school drama?   hahaha

This post is really long.  So the two followers and anyone else who happens to read this probably can't count on a new post anytime soon.  xD  Probably not until after Christmas..  and now is when I finally think of a generic title for this post.. and now I write bye, click "publish" and sign off.  Bye.

2011-11-22

[十四] 下個星期三

     My college applications are due next week on Wednesday.  D:  That means that November is ending into December.  That means that the year AD 2011 is about to melt into 2012.  Which means the last time I ever take the AP tests.  Which means the end of high school.  And that means that soon I'm going to start college.  And then the cycle repeats, or the world ends.  Whichever.  hahaha
     I'm going to miss high school life and all the friends I have now.  My applications are going out to UC Los Angeles, UC Berkeley, Yale University, Stanford University, and BYU - Provo.  I'll consider costs after I see which ones I get accepted into.  UCLA is currently my top choice.  Yale and Stanford are a long shot.  UC Berkeley is nice.  BYU is my back-up school.  (I do have friends in that area too that I will be crying just thinking about saying bye to them..  hahaha  Makes me secretly wish I don't get accepted to the other schools. xP)
     I wonder where I'll be a year from now..

2011-11-15

[十三] The Hunger Games

Today I just finished reading the first book in a series, The Hunger Games.  Most people have already read it.  I'm actually surprised that I just barely started.  I finished this first book in one day.  it cost me several hours of sleep and homework time:  All well worth it.
Basically, I found this book to be nothing short of amazing.  The story was well told in an easily imaginable setting.  For me the main characters were so easy to relate to.  I was immediately attached to them.  I even cried when Rue died.  hahaha  Don't judge.
The most haunting part for me was the parts preceding the actual Hunger Games.  I couldn't help but run the characters situation through my own head and wonder about how I would deal with the situations.  I kept imagining the people I knew.  And the situations were present so strongly in my own mind that I felt the same anxiety as the characters in the book.  I remember, when I got home from school earlier, I was reaching the part in the story when each of the tributes were being interviewed the day before they were to be sent into the Arena.  As soon as I read the last line of that chapter: "It won't work for me, because she came here with me.", I literally collapsed on the couch in shock because I couldn't bear the thought.

That was probably the most poorly written response to a book that I've ever written.. but it's past midnight and I have to be at school early tomorrow..  and I still want to read more of the second book.. therefore, I don't care.

There's an insight to the dramatic me.  hahaha

2011-11-13

[十二] 快瘋掉

There is no deep life story behind this post.  I just want to write.  These are my realizations.

First off:
     - Realization that all of the conversations with my dad since 2008 have gone exactly the same way:
"Hi, *how was work*?"
"Do you have homework?"
"Yea.. *Thanks for answering my question*."
"(Insert 'well just work harder' comment here)"
End conversation.
** As of late I've been omitting this parts of the sentences when speaking to shorten the conversation.

     - Realization that the above will probably never change and frankly, I'm sick of trying to make it change.
Screw it.  It's no longer worth the effort for more disappointment.

     - Realization that Blogs are basically oversized facebook wall posts.
For real.  hahaha  Just fewer viewers and you don't necessarily know what kind of people are reading said wall post.

     - Realization that college application deadlines are approaching.
Not too worried actually.  I'm making good progress on those.  :)

     - Realization the even the most mild anxiety inducing thoughts can occupy my mind for hours on end.
Those anxious thoughts are the 1%..  hahaha  political joke.  >_<

Back story:
     - Realization that: The biggest one on my head has been there for the past couple months now.  Sometimes I'd rather just find out about something now than later, even if said knowledge is potentially heartbreaking.  The problem is that to find such things out usually requires asking which is another big anxiety producer.

     - Realization that I realize the above because of my friend last night.  :(  Sorry PJ.

     - Realization that these realizations are going to drive me insane at some point.

     - Realization that this blog post needs to end now.

     - Realization that this post will not end right now.

     - Realization that this entire post is random.

     - Realization that the above post is a lie.
I actually have a purpose to writing whatever I write.

     - Realization that the above post is a lie.

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2011-11-11

[11-11-11 11:11] 願望

我希望_______..  ha  我不會寫.  Telling other people something you wish for is supposed to be bad luck right?   xD   Hope it comes true.  ^__^

2011-11-10

[十一] 氣球實現願望

In about 12 hours it will be 11-11-11 11:11:11.  (November 11, 2011 11:11:11 [time])  And you know that wish cliche that almost everyone will be participating in?  Yea, I'm doing that too.  hahaha  I have been waiting 17 and a half years for this to happen, so if I miss it: I. Will.  Be.   So.    Upset!  It has been 17.5 years of waiting but I didn't actually think of what to wish for until like 2 months ago.  haha  but do i know know?  Definitely.  ^__^   This is the only time this will happen in my lifetime so Ima be wide awake tomorrow.  And my mind functions on a 24-hour clock. So 11:11 pm just doesn't count for me.  xD  Anyways. YES!  :D  11-11-11 11:11:11!  Don't miss it.  oh even lucky-er: This is the 11th blogpost!   ^__^  Best line-up ever.  hahahahaa!!  Hope everyone's wishes come true!

2011-11-07

[十] 語言

Realization that I am studying so many languages.  ^__^  Languages are probably my favorite subjects in school.  I also feel that being multi-lingual is a very important skill to have, one that a lot of people in the United States just don't seem to have..  D:  Languages are like keys.  When you first learn to communicate with your mother as a baby, it opens up a sort of door that allows you to communicate with the rest of the family.  As you go through the stages of picking up your first language, it opens a door to a room filled with even more people that it's now possible to communicate with.  Each new language you pick up is like that: another open door to another whole new group people to meet.  And that fascinates me.  Perhaps I should look into linguistics and foreign language more in college?  But Psychology is really fun also.  haha  Who knows where I ultimately end up at..  It will be fun to find out.  Curious? Here's a list of the languages I'm studying:
-Filipino/Tagalog (First Language)
-English/Engrish (Second Language  xD)
-漢語 (Mandarin)
-한국어 (Korean)
-福建話 (Common Chinese Dialect spoken in the Philippines, mutually intelligible with Taiwanese)
-廣東話 (Cantonese)
-日本語 (Japanese, still in the basics)
-French (Still only know a few words but I've started)

These are the languages I will start eventually:
-Italian (always been fascinated by this one)
-German (sounds easy)
-Spanish (only coz a lot of people in the US speak it)
-Vietnamese (the next difficult one after Korean and Japanese)
-Thai, Cambodian, Lao (don't even know where to begin with these.. but it's a dream I'll go for)
-Malay (the roots of the Filipino language)

I wish i could just instantly speak them all..

2011-11-04

[九] 很忙

Yesterday was the last day of the first quarter of the last year of high school for me.  It's a very weird feeling to think that there is literally only a few months left.  This month all my college application are due even..  0__o  This past week, since the final marching band tour, has been way too busy.  I don't even get straight A's like I used to anymore.  >_<  But at least no C's or below.  That's the new standard I've lowered myself to in order to keep from going insane.  hahahahahaha~...  Okay, that's not really funny.. kinda disappointing actually.  But yea..  insanity is pretty bad.  Tonight I have to ballroom dance at a family friend's 18th birthday party at this super fancy hotel.. in Salt Lake City, UT.  (I bet only politicians ever actually stay there.)  Fun right?  Except I have the SAT Subject Tests tomorrow morning.. .. ..in Orem, UT.. .. ..about 45 minutes driving from where I live.. .. ..and it's supposed to storm tomorrow morning.. .. ..meaning I will have to wake up super early if I want to have time to find out where exactly on the college campus I'm supposed to go once I get there.  Afterwards though I hope to go visit some of my friends in Provo for the rest of the day.  It's been a couple months now since I've seen them.  :(  One of them is busy though.  :(
hmm..  Now I have nothing else to write about.. so Ima cut it off here.

2011-10-30

[八] 做完了

October 29, 2011:
Copper Hills High School
Competition at Clark High School in Las Vegas, NV.
Achievements:
- 3rd Place overall (Out of 5)
- Highest Percussion Score (No official caption award  :(  )
- Most Kickass Band (Unofficial)

We're now back at our hotel in St. George, UT.  I came into the CHHS Marching Band in 2009 summer after moving to West Jordan from Brea, CA.  My initial reactions to the music programs here were not very good.  hahaha   Since 2009 I have been a part of the CHHS Marching Band drumline, playing every part of it (Cymbals [2009] - Bass 2 [2009-2010] - Snare [2010] - Pit [2011]) except for Tenors, which I might try out for this year's winter season.  :)  Since then I have seen this band grow by more than 20 members, improving dramatically in music and marching quality: finally turning into the band I greatly longed to still be a part of at Brea.  We may not have taken any 1st place trophies home, or even seldom not in last place, over these two years, but none of that matters.  The growth I've seen has been too amazing to comprehend, and I'm extremely proud to have contributed to that growth.  My last words to the non-seniors in the band: "Guys, I've seen this band grow every year since 2009.  Don't shrink next year.  If any of you drop out, I'll beat you. >:)"
After that we had a pretty emotional moment.  I felt a little bad coz I was one of the only seniors not tearing up..  hahaha  Reality is I'm going to see all of them tomorrow morning and on Monday around school.  xD
CHHS Marching Grizzlies.  It's been great.  Thank you all.  I only wish I didn't move here in the middle of that summer so I could have marched that 4th year with you.  But the last 3 have been an amazing experience.
傷別啊。

2011-10-28

[七] 化學考試

The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid term.

The answer by one student was so 'profound' that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well :



Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.

One student, however, wrote the following:


First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today.

Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell,then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it?

If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, 'It will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,' and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number two must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct......leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting 'Oh my God.'


THIS STUDENT RECEIVED AN A+.

P.S. there is a become a fan thing in facebook for this :P



I wish this would work for me in AP Chem.  :'(

2011-10-27

[六] 愛因斯坦相對論

"Women marrymen hoping they will change.
Men marry women hoping they will not.
So each is inevitably disappointed." ~Albert Einstein


"Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. That's relativity."  ~Albert Einstein



Proves that he is a genius.

2011-10-26

[五] 愛情在詞典裏

Love.  This is a word that should be banned from the dictionary..  It's like putting a definite answer to something that's supposed to be unpredictable and magical.  Kinda kills the meaning of life right?  hehehe

2011-10-25

[四] 光陰似箭

Realization that the saying "Time flies" is a lie.  Hahaha.  It's my last year of high school and the time just disappears!  I don't even get to see it fly away.  :(  In 1 week, high school marching band is over forever.  In two weeks, 25% of this final year will have passed.  In 1 month, I'll be submitting my college applications (UCLA :D).  In 2 months, 2011年 is in the past.  4 months: Prom (要約出誰?)  5 Months: Graduation.  D:  太快了.  I'm excited for college also, but I feel like I still want more time to enjoy high school and spend time with friends here, especially since I plan on going out of state.  Not to play favorites or anything, but there are definitely a handful of friends that I will be especially sad to say bye to when that time comes.  (College.)

這些年 一個人 風也過 雨也走
有過淚 有過錯 還記得堅持什麼

真愛過 才會懂 會寂寞 會回首
終有夢 終有你 在心中

朋友 一生一起走 那些日子 不再有
一句話 一輩子 一生情 一杯酒

朋友 不曾孤單過 一聲朋友 你會懂
還有傷 還有痛 還要走 還有我
(演唱:周華健)

Quite possibly the cheesiest song ever written, but thinking about this right now, it makes me cry..  hehe

[三] 沒有主意

I am working on 3 different writing assignments right now and I have no idea what to write.  So, naturally, I go onto the blog and start writing about how I have nothing to write.  Logical right?  I'm reading someone else's life story as a source of inspiration:
"As a child, I was an introvert, but I loved playing dodge ball on the blacktop at school. I was a good student, and like many Asian Americans, my parents always extolled the value of studying hard, and being a well-behaved student during and after class.
Every day, after coming home and finishing my homework, I practiced piano, another rite of passage for many Asian Americans growing up in the 70’s. While I didn’t have that much interest in the piano, I kept getting better and better, until I started competing in some local piano competitions and fared rather well.
Yet the one thing I always loved to do was to write. I constantly wrote poems or short stories, and I discovered with just the turn of a phrase I was able to express feelings in ways I could never do out loud, particularly in front of a crowd.
For all intents and purposes, I had a happy and well-adjusted childhood…except for one thing.
That one thing was named Derrick Ho, or at least that’s what I am calling him.
Derrick was a year older than I, one of only two or three other Asians attending Patrick Henry High School. Derrick was slim, wore wire-rimmed glasses, was soft spoken, and was a bonafide genius. Derrick was the best in everything he ever wanted to do. It didn’t matter what the activity or class was – if Derrick participated, he would be the best.
Derrick had a genuinely humble manner about him, but his humbleness seemed to emanate from a place deep inside him where along with his genius, he figured he might as well reinforce his perfectness with an irritating dash of humility.
Of course, his accomplishments were truly daunting. Derrick played the piano as well, and he was known as one of the country’s most exciting prodigies. He won competition after competition, both nationally and around the world.
In school, he won the California State Science project competition two years in a row. He was a straight “A” student, and graduated at the top of his class.
Upon graduating high school, he received a full scholarship to Harvard, where he earned double majors and also joined the Harvard symphony, where he ended up playing the violin, and played so well he became the first chair violinist of the symphony.
I hated Derrick. But not for the reasons you might think.
While Derrick’s accomplishments were surely daunting, I wasn’t particularly jealous of him. The natural impulse for most people when confronting someone with singular talent is not necessarily to be envious.
When standing in front of a Van Gogh painting or listening to a Beethoven concerto, your first reaction wouldn’t usually be “I feel like an idiot because I can’t do that.” One can appreciate a work of art or genius simply for what it is - genius.
Except, in this case.
As many Asian Americans can probably attest, a common practice for parents to prod their kids to success was to compare their accomplishments to those of others who were excelling. Since my parents were friends of Derrick’s parents, Derrick became my “Role Model”.
Inevitably, almost on a weekly basis, one or both of my parents would say something like:
“Derrick just won the grand prize at the so and so festival in New York!”
Or, “Derrick entered the state science fair and was just written up in the newspaper!”
Or, Derrick is taking three AP classes for college and got all ‘A’s!
At the end of each exclamation, my mom or dad would inevitably follow up the statement with, “Wayne, if you’d just study a little harder you could be like Derrick”, as if true genius can be attained simply by putting down a comic book and staying up to study a half hour more.
But with the passage of time, it’s hard to recall every one of Derrick’s achievements, but for those I still remember, the sheer brilliance of each event seems to increase in magnitude with each passing year, as if each accomplishment continued to become that much more unattainable to us mortals as the years rolled by. Even Derrick’s real achievements could never compare to my exaggerated recollections of what he’d done.
Here are some of my recollections. You tell me if my mind is playing tricks on me.
Derrick wins the Young Pianists competition, by rewriting and playing Beethoven’s Piano Concerto #5. I believe he called it, Beethoven’s Fifth, The Improved Version.
Derrick wins the 1976 California State Science Project competition with his project, “Global Warming – It hasn’t started yet but it’s coming!”
Derrick wins the 1977 California State Science Project competition with his project, “Global Warming – How I stopped it with leftover parts in my backyard.”
OK, maybe I’m embellishing…a little.
I haven’t seen Derrick in over 20 years now. I hear he’s living a quiet, simple life, keeping mostly to himself and surprisingly, not taking the world by storm. I heard that he had some difficulties living up to the expectations that he and others had set for him.
My guess is that if he had to do it over again, he’d like to take some time off and just read a comic book.
One of these days, I’d like to catch up with him. I’d hope that despite us taking different life paths, we’d find that we both turned out OK. I’d like to shake his hand.
Maybe he’d be up for a game of dodge ball."
~ Wayne Chan

很有意思,對不對?  I don't really have permission from the author to use this.. but Ima just hope I don't get sued. I'm not using it on my assignment or for monetary gain or anything..  I just like the story because I can relate to it.  :):):)

2011-10-21

2011-10-20

[一] 別開生面

I tried blogging last year, but after a bit I forgot about it and changed my email since then.  So this is a 別開生面 (fresh start).  Hopefully I don't lose track of this one because I really do like to voice my opinions.





There's my introduction.  :D  'Till next time.